Sunday, June 22, 2008

Brief Moments of Startling Clarity

We are now in possession of a diaper bag, a car seat, and a play pen. They sat in the living room for a few days, and have now made their way up to the guest room. At one point while they were still in the living room, I was sitting on the couch, reading. I looked up, stared at the car seat for a moment, and suddenly pictured a baby sitting there in front of me. For that split second, the prospect of having a child was very very real. It was wonderful, but also a little frightening. For the most part, it still hasn’t sunk in that we’re having a baby. I know it intellectually, of course, but I’m beginning to wonder if my brain is really going to “get it” before the baby is actually born. In that instant on the couch, however, it was completely real. It was an exciting moment, but like I said, a little scary too, which I think is appropriate. I have no doubt that Karin and I are ready (as we’ll ever be) to have this baby, and that we’ll be good parents, but that surety doesn’t remove the fact that we’ve never done this before. Raising a child is going to be a brand new experience and not an easy one, I imagine.

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